Have you seen how perverted the shots are? Statistically it was more likely to be a he because there’s more heterosexual men than bisexual/homosexual/every-other-sexual-that-means-they’re-attracted-to-women woman, but really it was just a guess.
Like I have great friends and they help a lot, but I miss being in love, even when it was never mutual. I don’t have hope anymore, like there’s nothing in the near future to look forward to. I’m not rewarded on a Monday morning for surviving the weekend, I just keep living and living and I want something new to make me feel like there’s something worth living for. Friends do help that, like I said, but platonic love isn’t the same. I think that’s why I was missing Jelly Brain last week. I do want to move on, I practically have moved on, but I want someone, or something, new, something to keep me going again. I think this is the point in my life where I’m supposed to have a love affair with music, but it’s never been like that for music. I hope I find something soon, I feel like I’m losing myself, I’m losing my ability to think positively and never be angry and always be happy and love everything, I’m getting stuck in a rut.